If it seems like I’ve been a little neglectful of this blog lately, that’s because I have!
I am currently sitting in a hotel room in San Antonio, eating PBJ for dinner, and wondering how my life changed so drastically in what feels like a couple of days. In reality, it’s been months of preparation and weeks of actual hard work but here we are! My sister and I are in SA getting the last details together over the next week. She has a job interview on Monday. We picked up bus passes yesterday. It’s all really coming together. Before long, we’ll be loading the U-Haul and furnishing our terribly small apartment and loving every second of being on our own.
Yesterday, we said goodbye to my parents. As I’ve mentioned before, we don’t get along always. My history with my mother is strange and hard to manuever most days. But saying goodbye felt so final, that I was a literally mess. There was ugly sobbing all around. And it felt like a real major step forward. I know everyone says there’s never any point where you suddenly feel like an adult and to a certain extent, I agree but this kind of felt like that for me. I may have my sister still but we’re on our own. The decisions for who and what I am are entirely mine now. It’s silly, because I’m twenty-four and I’ve been an adult for a while now. But now, today, there was no one to fall back on, no one to worry about what they thought and said, no one to influence me directly. It’s almost scary.
I’m sorry if this post seems a little spastic or rambling. I just needed to get my thoughts and excitement out there. I live on my own now! Yay me!
I hope you can forgive the absence lately, now that you know all this.
Chasse’